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No Cheers
When you hit the time
And think you got it right
Only you can see you did that
So they yell back to you
“That’s right!”
You reach your goals
And you’re on top
You hear them yell
“That’s right!”
When you lose it all
And you’re on the floor
You hear them say
“That’s right!”
When you make something new
Out of the blue
And you want to show them
What you could do
You hear silence from them
You thought that was right
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I look at my hands
I see the wounds
One for each threat
Killed a mother
Killed a father
A sister and a brother
If I remove the arrow
From my hand
I will definitely go down
However I am reminded
By the treason I have done
My reminder is so I can stand
Know what I ended
And what I can begin
I look at my hands
I see a memory
Of which I cannot combat
It has taken over my soul
And my ground
Find affection
And the arrow
Will fall under
No question
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I walked in
He said you suffer
From depression
I said Doctor
Why the aggression
Just tell me how
Much is the session
Will tea time help
I want the good herb
Something purple
He continued to ask
Did anyone cause you
Repression or suppression
You seem to lack
I said only with
Good intention
You see doctor we
Are special
And I have nothing
To mention
It is a special kind of
Direction making me
In your attention
Let me enjoy my
Unreachable perfection
That’s all for now
Allow me to go
For suspension
I never cured my
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It’s a Fix You by Coldplay kinda day
I don’t know why do I feel this way
Something is missing
Something is not right
I keep thinking
Will I ever be loved?
Will I ever be liked?
Ever be dared or lost?
I don’t know why I am sad
I don’t know how to fix this
I don’t know what I need
Or if I have the will to breathe
At this ignorance is not bliss
I’m aching and I don’t know why
I’m hurting from deep down
I can’t tell you why
All I know is I close my eyes and cry
Hear me
Be with me
Hold me
Fix me
I can laugh
After all
I am greedy
I got what I need
But not what I want
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Nayyer by soona15 Nayyer :iconsoona15:soona15 7 5
Love Monstrosity
I do hope in my heart
Your words are not mere lies
Unfortunately I only hope
What makes me so sure is
Everything about you
You tell me you love me
Take what you want from me
Leave me because you no longer need me
Then after months I beg and plead
Remind you I’m still only here
The problem is when you take I enjoy
You have illusion on your side
You use and I feel revived
Then come back to reality agonised
What am I to do
What am I to say
I see my life without you
But I cannot be bent
You say you love me
I know it’s a lie
I’ve heard it many a times to know
Love from you I can not see
I learnt not to plead
But I’m addicted to what you need
It’s my fault I’m wrong
I love feeding his greed
I shall wait until the next time
You remember you love me
Remember you want me
And how I am your one and only
Except I lie too
Maybe I lie more
I tell you one day
And you believe what I say
Is it me or you
The one who has no clue
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In my mind, I’m not just an artist
In my mind, I have done it all
I have conquered the world
In my mind I was the hero of this world
I have not only taken the sword
I fought with it against several lords
I danced and loved
Laughed a whole lot
Created musicals
Where clouds morphed for me
Seen all the roses there are to see
In my mind I’m a good singer
Dancing and running in the pouring rain
Twirling round like a spinning top
In my dress that shines in pink
Thinking one day I will be that great
In my mind I’m a bright young girl
Who’s really loved in all the sorts
Makes them all just smile back
And fall in love with an artful force
In my mind I’m a lovely girl
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Obligation Undismayed
Within this day a solemn oath
A pact was made
Under a lovely shade
I feared to promise
So I just said OK
But today in the memory
Of that vow
I promise
I promise
I promise
I said it three
Like we agreed
And now I’ll say
I know I’ll have to pay
Within this day
That’s slightly grey
Unlike the shade
We were in that day
The solemn oath was made
I give my word and pledge
I will not fall to the edge
And see my eyes that overcome
The fear of a vow I should have done
I finally promise I will become
The best artist there is to everyone
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Amorous Kiss
Away from the one I know
Far away but close with memories
This is where we said goodbye
This is where we first laughed
This is where I took off my shoes
It was a funny story, that day
A smile escaped my face
I saw where you first kissed me
That time you actually said
“I wanna kiss you”
I answered most delightfully
“kiss me”
We closed our eyes, leaned in
Everything stopped
It was a huge pause
We were transported
From the fountains around me
To the fireworks that saved me
It never stopped, I saw the colours
You led me to the stars I could not hold
I felt all the fireflies kissing me gently
Under the moon, under the starry night
It was over; I had to open my eyes
We pulled away heavily
Bit my lower lip and looked down
Your eyes sparkled to our kiss
Thank you for our kiss
Thank you for the memory of that kiss
That time I said “kiss me”
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Sand's Hook
At night in the desert
You will see the deception
See the eyes that wrote
All the scary conceptions
At day in the desert
You will find an intellect
You might think it's a defect
But it’s something to reflect
You see us and wonder
If our pain is apparent
We’ll tell you stories
How dunes carried our glories
Made us believe
Forget and promise
If you ask us
We will tell you
Our fights and wars
Our laughs and promises
We will also tell you
What we are thankful for
The night’s secrets
The day’s clarity
The mind’s forgetfulness
Thank God we forget
We forgot how our people
Our land
Our deserts
Tricked us into falling
Into loving it
Ask us what we love the most
The answer’s always one
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I went to a place
Where she stands
Her place is a trap they say
She does not please the Lord
The kings adore her
The town despises her
Only the ones driven by lust
Go to her and ask for love
She might refuse
Or break your heart
I knocked on her door
She let me in
A dove flew in with me
She was waiting for light
She was weak and fragile
I found her broken
If I had known
How to mend a Heart
I saw her light
I saw her beauty
She took my breath
As I sighed by her allure
She does not know love
She knows how to win
Love is a match
She has to surpass
She broke me down
Only knows to conquer
The kings tormented her
Her fear is her shelter
I stayed to touch her heart
To mend what was broken
To prove what love is
She was defeated
Showed me her bruises
Gave me all she is
I was her lift
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You're an interesting one
A quiet one
Broken but smiling
Your mystery's been my muse
Always wanted to know more
You never gave me enough
Always touched my core
Took me places I know
Places I've been before
They were dim before you
You're waiting for your match
She's someone mesmerising
She'll get me jealous
But I know
You'll always be far away
Never fall for your muse
I often break these rules
You've seen my love
Seen my heart
Seen my secrets
Easily impressed
Hush.. keep it
That was the time
You told me you knew
But I trusted you
So I let it with you
You will never show me
I feel different with you
I never thought
I will meet someone
More mysterious than I
He swept me off my feet
In my own game
You beat me at my own game
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They see it every day
It's always around them
They see it all the time
They don't see it at all
They're blind to what is real
They took it for granted
So they don't feel it
Passion: gone
Love: gone
Romance: gone
Raw: gone
All their thoughts
All they witness
What they don't have
There's so much to hold
They can't hold it
They need to sing
To see they sing
Sing with the cold
In the magical night
Sing the song of love
And shed the tears
Tears of love
That's when it's felt
Real passion is touched
True love Love is held
Sweet Romance is owned
And raw is embraced
The song is not a trance
Nor is it a wake-up call
Don't sing because you have to
Sing because you want to
And when you sing
That cold cold winter
Will be nothing
Give off the vibe
Make them feel
Bring them to tears
The tears are the feels
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Miss Dreamy
Her grin was the warmest
Her laugh was the most beautiful
Her smile was the sexiest
Her eyes always gleamed
Her face was always glowing
Her cheeks were always red
Her lips were always moist
How was I to know she was falling down
How was I to know she was losing
She hid it so well
With her smile and her eyes
How was I to know
Do I blame myself
Or do I blame her enchanting beauty
A million miles away
She left with all her grace
Who's to blame?
She knew my state
I was running around
Looking for her face
I could see her
But she would always fade
I hoped she would notice me
Before she left
She hugged me tight
Said her last goodbyes
Promised she will be back
She didn't know she would be
So far away
Far away from reality
So far away from home
Her smile is still the sexiest
Her cheeks still glow
Her radiance will never leave
She left with so much grace
She knew I would miss
She knew I would collide
She knew my smile would never leave
She knew it is the brightest
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Elusive Love
Love you have never reached
Love you can feel and only great ones can see
Love you can reach but are blind to see
As long as you guide the way you feel
I have seen you force the love in you
Love does not work in force
Love does not function that way
Love is beyond your reach
When you have let go of all the ways
The ways that you think you feel
And feel what you do not know you feel
Love works with the heart not the brain
As long as you are still in your own mind
You will never feel the love I see
Love that is stronger than you and me
You claim you are a part of it
But you are so in your head that you think
Only you have seen it
It is so far away from you
You have got a long way to see the love
The love you think you feel
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Arabian Deserts
A night so dark
I called it kohl
My land is known for
starry black nights
and solitaire games
Of winds and sand
Orange is the dust
And brown is the land
With the sun up above
Burning yellow
Our night is the magic
What shows up at night
Only Arabs know a
Secret can't be told
At night the moon
And the stars they
All stare down at
Arabs in the breeze
Of the night and the
Tricks of the desert
No man can combat
The desert's scheme
In the dark night
No Arab can resist
To defy its land
Moon as our witness
Nights are secrets
No where but in the
Conniving Arab's land
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Ripped Away
We were meant to
Take over the world
But every day
Kept us hostage...
We were just
Getting used to living in a world
That didn't want us alive
Ripped away
Ripped away
Every day we had to
Outrun them all
But every passing day
They took more of us...
Been staring at you more and more
Every day
We all saw more scars on you...
Ripped away
Ripped away
(Are you there?)
(Can you hear my voice?)
(Was there ever hope, after all?)
Are we
More than just dust?
Are we
Robbed right from the start?
Just tell me please...
(Are we more than just dust?)
Why would you leave me?
(Are we robbed right from the start?)
We could've made things better...
(Are we more than just this?)
How could you leave us?
(Are we found if we are lost?)
This is the end for all of us...
Ripped away
Ripped away
(Are we more
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Tick Tock
Tick tock

goes the clock.

Follow me
for only I can see.

Tick tock
The gate is locked.

Let's run away
from the demon in gray.

Where's the exit?
No need to panic.

Away from the screams
away from the never-ending dreams.

Isn't that door
something we saw before?

Put your trust in me
for only I can set you free.
Tick tock
No need to be in shock.

I'll bring you into the light,
so don't tremble in fright.

Tick tock
Our escape is blocked!

Sound of footsteps getting near
of my master whom you so fear.

Tick tock
Please.... stop.

Worry not, this won't last.
For when it comes, the end will be fast.
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In the summer sun
a crumbling curb
with discolored
concrete patches
"MARK" Scratched
with a child's scrawl
angled lines crossing
a monument in stone
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mother nature
standing before me dressed in green
we both know a flower will unfurl
a beauty unseen
set to make leaves curl
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New Year, new possibilities 

I can’t believe I finally made it! Twelve months without a smart phone. #nophonechallenge SUCCESSFUL!!  

I’ve actually done it for a whole year!

Ok, so I was thinking how should I start this entry? What exactly should I talk about? From which aspect should I mention this?

 I decided to just write what comes to mind. Because I believe that writing from the heart is best. Living without a smartphone has its ups and downs. I might say that I’m focused. Everytime I see people attached to their chargers next to the wall, I think this might have been me. But it’s not. At the same time, I’m not sure if they feel the need to be stuck to their smartphones the whole day. But at the same time I know people who always say “you know I never use my smartphone.” And I noticed that they tell me that only after I tell them about this whole experiment that I turned into my capstone thesis project, which has been going really well, so I’m glad.

There are so many things I want to talk to you guys about since this will probably be my last entry. I had a reason to type about my life. And there was a theme now there isn’t a reason to go on. So this is the last of my life ^_^ I’ll try my best not to make it long and boring.

When I first started this challenge it was because I was in such a bad place in my life that I needed a drastic change to prove to myself that I can do something I set my mind to. And now my graduation project is about this very challenge.

I cannot say that I lived without social media because I feel like I was forced to turn to skype and Facebook messages to reach people. I had to open Instagram more than once for projects in school and checking ads in my internship. I still checked Pinterest every now and then. So I cannot say that I had a social media cleanse oh and of course Deviantart. There were times where I missed my smartphone and I couldn’t wait til this challenge is over and others I felt blessed that I don’t have my smartphone. The fact that I did not know any celebrity trivia was freeing to me. I hated scrolling through twitter or Instagram and knowing something about some celebrity that would never bring value to my life. I could dedicate more time in things I want to learn in life and things I want to improve in my skills and so on. I had a problem with not being confident enough and I realised that problem throughout the challenge and now I could definitely say that I have gained confidence in the sense of I don’t need to hide anything from anyone and that I don’t feel embarrassed in just being myself and doing this challenge. I could say that I have had more genuine talks with so many people, because there wasn’t anything blocking the conversation which would be as simple as looking down at your phone for no reason whatsoever. I have also noticed a better sleeping pattern because there isn’t a tiny screen to stare at for 2 hours before I actually sleep. I’d definitely say that I have replaced my smartphone for my laptop, my notebook, my sketchbook and BOOKS!!

I get bored SO FAST!! I always thought having a smartphone would get rid of my boredom somehow but it never did. Without it, whenever I did get bored I would do something productive. For example I'd be working on a project then get bored so I work on another project then work on one of my paintings and so on. I can tell you that I got SO MUCH MORE productive!!

Living in our fast world in a rather slow pace compared to smartphone users has been very interesting to me. And I sure am not as depressed as I was in December of 2015. I think I have come a long way and I believe that people should realise that sometimes in life you just have to put your phone away.

I have become more aware and more focused in the now and the moment I’m living. It is an amazing feeling that I haven’t felt before. I’m sure people don’t need to do what I did to achieve awareness but putting down the phone helps in seeing the world around you; and being in the moment, rather than in your head and in your thoughts.

Also, I have realised the people who truly matter stick around and they actually look for you. This challenge has helped me filter so many people in my life and I'm glad that the people around me now are the ones who matter. :aww:

I think that should be all because that's too much to read and I do not want to bore you people. If any of you are interested in the research I have conducted regarding this topic for my capstone thesis project then just ask :D I'll be more than happy to share. 

Finally, thank you for reading all I wrote and most importantly thank you for those who supported me, kept reading my journals and were always interested in reading the next. Thank you so so much! You're a major reason I actually went on with this and did not give in to the temptation haha. Thank you!

It has been an amazing year with so many bumps but we stand strong jumping to the next level!
2017!! We can't wait to achieve goals with you!

Good luck and live happy. Use smartphones responsibly and SMILE!!


Sana Duhaiby
Artist | Student | Varied
Saudi Arabia
I'm not weird I just love being me.
after all the shit I've been through what I am now is pretty good. I like to admit that what I have been through made me who I am today :)


When you hit the time
And think you got it right
Only you can see you did that
So they yell back to you
“That’s right!”

You reach your goals
And you’re on top
You hear them yell
“That’s right!”

When you lose it all
And you’re on the floor
You hear them say
“That’s right!”

When you make something new
Out of the blue
And you want to show them
What you could do
You hear silence from them
You thought that was right
No Cheers
I hope you enjoyed reading. Heart

Any feedback or comments are more than welcome Aww
What I miss the most about graduating university is that there's no poetry club to take care of anymore.
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Ingelore Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Many thanks for the watch! :heart:
soona15 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student General Artist
Of course!! Your work is absolutely beautiful!! :love:
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luffykun300 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the fave, hope you'll like my other poems :) <3…
soona15 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2017  Student General Artist
You're welcome!!
Will definitely check your work out!
emmakomi Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the +fave =)
soona15 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2017  Student General Artist
Anytime :D
cerva-puella Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the favourite :) 
soona15 Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2017  Student General Artist
You're welcome!! :D
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Are you writing a story's or something like that ??
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