HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!!
New Year, new possibilities
I can’t believe I finally made it! Twelve months without a smart phone. #nophonechallenge SUCCESSFUL!!
I’ve actually done it for a whole year!
Ok, so I was thinking how should I start this entry? What exactly should I talk about? From which aspect should I mention this?
I decided to just write what comes to mind. Because I believe that writing from the heart is best. Living without a smartphone has its ups and downs. I might say that I’m focused. Everytime I see people attached to their chargers next to the wall, I think this might have been me. But it’s not. At the same time, I’m not sure if they feel the need to be stuck to their smartphones the whole day. But at the same time I know people who always say “you know I never use my smartphone.” And I noticed that they tell me that only after I tell them about this whole experiment that I turned into my capstone thesis project, which has been going really well, so I’m glad.
There are so many things I want to talk to you guys about since this will probably be my last entry. I had a reason to type about my life. And there was a theme now there isn’t a reason to go on. So this is the last of my life ^_^ I’ll try my best not to make it long and boring.
When I first started this challenge it was because I was in such a bad place in my life that I needed a drastic change to prove to myself that I can do something I set my mind to. And now my graduation project is about this very challenge.
I cannot say that I lived without social media because I feel like I was forced to turn to skype and Facebook messages to reach people. I had to open Instagram more than once for projects in school and checking ads in my internship. I still checked Pinterest every now and then. So I cannot say that I had a social media cleanse oh and of course Deviantart. There were times where I missed my smartphone and I couldn’t wait til this challenge is over and others I felt blessed that I don’t have my smartphone. The fact that I did not know any celebrity trivia was freeing to me. I hated scrolling through twitter or Instagram and knowing something about some celebrity that would never bring value to my life. I could dedicate more time in things I want to learn in life and things I want to improve in my skills and so on. I had a problem with not being confident enough and I realised that problem throughout the challenge and now I could definitely say that I have gained confidence in the sense of I don’t need to hide anything from anyone and that I don’t feel embarrassed in just being myself and doing this challenge. I could say that I have had more genuine talks with so many people, because there wasn’t anything blocking the conversation which would be as simple as looking down at your phone for no reason whatsoever. I have also noticed a better sleeping pattern because there isn’t a tiny screen to stare at for 2 hours before I actually sleep. I’d definitely say that I have replaced my smartphone for my laptop, my notebook, my sketchbook and BOOKS!!
I get bored SO FAST!! I always thought having a smartphone would get rid of my boredom somehow but it never did. Without it, whenever I did get bored I would do something productive. For example I'd be working on a project then get bored so I work on another project then work on one of my paintings and so on. I can tell you that I got SO MUCH MORE productive!!
Living in our fast world in a rather slow pace compared to smartphone users has been very interesting to me. And I sure am not as depressed as I was in December of 2015. I think I have come a long way and I believe that people should realise that sometimes in life you just have to put your phone away.
I have become more aware and more focused in the now and the moment I’m living. It is an amazing feeling that I haven’t felt before. I’m sure people don’t need to do what I did to achieve awareness but putting down the phone helps in seeing the world around you; and being in the moment, rather than in your head and in your thoughts.
Also, I have realised the people who truly matter stick around and they actually look for you. This challenge has helped me filter so many people in my life and I'm glad that the people around me now are the ones who matter.
I think that should be all because that's too much to read and I do not want to bore you people. If any of you are interested in the research I have conducted regarding this topic for my capstone thesis project then just ask I'll be more than happy to share.
Finally, thank you for reading all I wrote and most importantly thank you for those who supported me, kept reading my journals and were always interested in reading the next. Thank you so so much! You're a major reason I actually went on with this and did not give in to the temptation haha. Thank you!
It has been an amazing year with so many bumps but we stand strong jumping to the next level!
2017!! We can't wait to achieve goals with you!
Good luck and live happy. Use smartphones responsibly and SMILE!!
I'm not weird I just love being me.
after all the shit I've been through what I am now is pretty good. I like to admit that what I have been through made me who I am today
ForevermoreAfter the smoke clears from your last shot to my heart,
I stand here...not dead...but standing numb,
because the way you've spoken to me through your art,
i've no words...in awe...what has become,
I had survived your words,
Even when I thought I couldn't,
now we fly like birds,
though i thought i always wouldn't,
I am stronger than I ever thought I could be,
I find my strength in what I thought weak,
who would have thought you'd love me for me,
and allow me to be a weirdo freak,
I am yours and you are mine
And there will be nothing else allowed,
our plan has come along quite fine,
these grounds we walk, all hallowed,
We have something really special, you and I,
Its a love no one else can muster,
on one another we can always rely,
there is no lacking in our luster,
I am alive but in a different way,
This way is better, i believe, for me,
i guess what i think, i'm trying to say,
it's just you and me here in this tree...
This tree of life, just for us,
The sense if splendor of nature spoi
Upright CriminalBlue-grey rain drizzles
From a leaky sky,
Blends with oil rainbows
That almost beautify
The drug-sick alleys,
And pawnshop avenues,
The page-splatter streets
Of crime wave news.
In hungry winter, I
Commit a petty crime,
To get myself locked up;
I rot my too-much time
Just to find the space
For a warm steel bed;
And I get white crackers
When I ask for bread.
Cops patrol poverty,
Yet ignore nine-one-ones,
Packing corrupt cell blocks
With hollowed out sons
Of hallowed half men;
The mayor pockets wealth,
Growing fat and rich
On the poor’s poor health.
One day a runaway
Sick of daddy’s dark pride,
Living as a throw-away,
Estranged and denied,
Met me eye to eye
To ask me for change;
And the only thought
I had is of how strange
That I too am vagrant;
But this girl seemed so sad,
I pulled out my pockets
And gave her all I had;
And though this truth
May seem quite minimal,
There is such a thing
As an upright criminal.